In addition to his wife, three children, and himself, the famous person killed himself on December 13 at the age of 40.
Following the death of her late husband, Stephen tWitch Boss, Allison Holker took care of the three children they shared. She has endured torturous months.
The professional dancer revealed her innermost feelings in her first interview since Stephen’s suicide to help those who suffer in silence.
Allison claimed in an interview with People that she misses Stephen most for the commonplace, everyday things since his passing on December 13. When tWitch was still alive, the dancer and TV host spoke about family life with their children Maddox, 7, Weslie, 14, and Zaia, saying, “We’d have so many random conversations, and there was so much laughter.”.
“Our love was so openly expressed and sincere. We often spoke of our house as a carefully choreographed dance. ”.
The executive producer and beloved DJ of the Ellen DeGeneres Show committed suicide at age 40, shocking fans. Allison acknowledged that she was ignorant of his mental illness and depression.
“No one knew how depressed he was. He didn’t want anyone to find out. All he wanted was to be Superman and the protector of all.”.
For Allison, who perpetually misses Stephen and her former family unit, the days are inherently challenging. It’s been really difficult because I can’t comprehend what was happening at that precise moment that he died, she said.
Allison desires for her husband to be regarded as the outstanding man she wed. While performing together as All-Stars on Fox’s So You Think You Can Dance in 2010, she first met her husband.
She remarked that Stephen “brought so much joy to this world” and “deserves to be remembered as the beautiful man he was.”.
She has since started the Move with Kindness Foundation to support mental health initiatives. “I agree with the saying, “Reach out to the Strongest People,” which is something we frequently hear. But I also want the message to be that it’s okay to lean on someone else if you’re feeling down or depressed,” she continued. Believe that even during your darkest moments, people will still see you as that light. ”.
Since her tragedy, Allison has gotten a lot of messages and well wishes. “I’ve had a lot of people, particularly men, reach out to me, telling how they were so affected because they didn’t realize how much they were holding in and not expressing,” the mother of three continued.”.
“At first, I thought that was a lot to hold onto, but then I realized I want people to feel comfortable talking to me, to open up, and to understand that we need to support one another through these times. Right now, it would be acceptable and valid for me to allow myself to enter a dark place, she said. But I want to choose a different course of action for myself and the kids.”.
What about the lessons she teaches her children? Being angry or upset doesn’t make you a bad person. We’re dealing with it together, and that requires vulnerability and trust.
Allison mentioned a recent conversation with Stephen as she raised an eyebrow at the night sky. “Since we believe he is there, stars are very important to me. So that’s the reason, then. I knew I wanted him to be at peace,” she said. “While I was out in the open, I said to him, “I forgive you, and I hope you’re with us. It was so healing to talk to him and express my joy, love, sadness, and forgiveness.”.
While they both competed on FOX’s So You Think You Can Dance and went on to become professionals, Allison and Stephen first met through dance, but she is still unable to pick up dancing again. “I still haven’t danced. That will be a big step for me, but I know I can do it, the woman says. In this direction, he is pointing me.”.
If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, call the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline at 988, text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741741, or go to 988lifeline.org.
